As far back as I am able to remember, possibly 4-5 years of age, I always remember feeling lost, or "misplaced" or homesick for somewhere else, other than where I was. Now, with almost 70 years of experience, looking back, it seems no matter where I lived, or moved, I always felt the same, i.e. misplaced, and wondering when I will finally get home! But, this last move has given me more peace than any other area I have ever lived, at least, so far. Perhaps it just might be, I am mellowing with age, or the fact I am now really retired, no longer competing in the chaotic world of the workaday world of dog eat dog, all the while watching my back. I still don't have the least clue of what I want to be when I grow up! But I do know, 70 years of floundering around, like a fish out of water, never feeling secure or fulfilled, doesn't feel like I have yet arrived at Shangrala, or Paradis. I wish I had all the answers to share with Y'All, but all I have is speculation gained from the experience of this particular incarnation, because its all I am able to remember. I have tried various practices, and meditation or prayer exercises to try and remember past lives, if there were any, but so far, other than glimpses of dream state type occurrences, I have no proof they ever really did exist in my past. But, I DO have a speculated belief system, that has grown on me by what I have seen, read, heard, or experienced.
From the onset, I should state, that in spite of all the past posts I have shared in this Blog, in order to make any sense at all for me, Karma and Reincarnation seems to be the only fair system that any Creator could be accused of using to control creation in this material world, at least, here on earth where we each create our own individual karma's. "What goes around comes back around." every action has a consequence, or as the Apostle Paul was quoted to have said, in the Christian Bible, "We reap what we sow," ( paraphrased.) The Calvinistic Theology of John Calvin, of, Predestination, Election and Reprobatation of souls born into this world already have their final destiny to be saved or lost in this incarnation, no matter how much works they do, good or bad. In other words, the deck of cards are stacked against the Reprobate, no matter what they do, and Grace abounds for each and every member of the "Marked Elect", according to Calvinistic Theology, and again, I believe it lines up perfectly with the Doctrine of Karma and Reincarnation. ( But, of course, I can't prove I have been around before, in one or more past lives,) but if I AM able to survive and get out of this place without dying, it will be reincarnation based on my accumulated past karmas created by, non other than myself. I don't blame my Creator, nor anyone else, for my present place where this insignificant grain of sand has landed in Death Valley! I Am grateful to have been allowed to share the promise of living "Three Score and Ten" stated in the Bible. A Score calculates to 20 years, so 70 years are what the Old Testament deity promised humans who tried to be righteous, at least. So, I feel I have just about drew my last year out of the Bank of Life for this incarnation, at least. From here, well, that's what I will continue to discuss.
But, there has to be a reason of why I am here, if none of my past posts on Theology, Eastern Philosophy, Rosicrucianism, Martinism, etc. does not make any sense to a Reader. But, for sure, EACH of us, are individual Special morsels of Atomic Creation, right now, bags of flesh, blood, and bones, ( filled with poop and pee), but also animated with the Creator's Spark of Life which we all share in order to be alive in these individual earth suits. This Spark of Life is a mysterious Electro-Magnetic Current described by Theologians and Philosophers by different interpretations since life begin here on earth. Wars are still fought because of Sects not being able to agree on just what this mysterious Life Force is, and just Who controls It. Of course, each individual believes only they, know the way to use this Life Force, so, until this mysterious Life Force takes material form, and is interviewed on T.V., and explains just how to become proficient of the One and Only Truth,.................well, grains of sand in Eternal Time will continue to share what they think they know in what ever areas they are led to share, such as a Blog like this one you have stumbled onto!
Until We meet again, I remain,......